Never be afraid to be alone.
A few weeks ago this was me. I wasn't happy in my situation but I was too afraid to be alone. I'm 28 do I really want to start again? Can I be bothered to find somewhere to live? Can I be bothered to move all of my stuff?
Well I couldn't be bothered to tell you the truth and that really is no reason to stay in a situation.
In the end the decision was made for me. I had to start again, I had to find somewhere to live, I had to be bothered to move all of my stuff. And you know what? It wasn't bad at all.
The first 2 days were horrible, a million questions running through my head. I live in a small town, everyone will know.
Two days after that though I felt fine. In fact I felt better than I have in forever. Covered in grief for the past year, I felt good. My last post was written after this incident and that shows you my mood. I thought to myself, 'you know what Kel? After everything that has happened to you in the last year, this really doesn't rate at all.'
So five days later I started telling people, they now knew and no one could believe it but that's ok, they all know now and they have all supported me. One of my friends offered me a place to stay, so I'm now a farm girl, living out of town with an Englishman and an Irishman. Sounds like the start of a joke doesn't it? And you know what? I'm loving life. So once again my advice to you is to never be afraid to be alone, you just never know where it might take you.
I wanted to share a quote I found on Pinterest:
'and maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy,
maybe it's you,
on your own,
picking up the pieces and starting over,
freeing yourself up for something better in the future,
maybe the happy ending is just moving on.'
So I have freed myself up for something better in the future and my happy ending is just moving on.
I wrote this over a week ago and only now am I ready to publish it because yet again I worry too much about others feelings.
Oh my goodness, no photos!!